Tuesday night, I spent the hours between 8pm and midnight in an anxious, doubtful frenzy. I’ve officially started my postgrad job search. I thought I knew what to expect based on the stories I’ve heard from my friends who jumped right into it right after college. I, who took a short break on the other hand, didn’t realize how intimidating and stressful it was going … Continue reading God, insomnia, and resumés
I get my inspiration from rainy, late night drives. Sometimes I get it from having a few too many drinks. Sometimes, it just hits me out of nowhere. But I’m almost always never in a good place to record it or write it down when it strikes, and then it flees from my mind and becomes a lost memory. And I’ve had quite a few … Continue reading Life’s possibilities and making hard decisions
I need to vent because I quite literally might go insane right now if I don’t start writing. I’ve had a lot of pent up anxiety and anger at my world today. Sheer rage to be honest. I’ve been feeling frustrated, stuck, upset… just so unhappy thinking about my current situation, my future, and the life I want to live. And when I’m like the … Continue reading Vents by Jess: Matthew 6:25 and worrying about life
Given the fact that during this time of social distancing my life has fallen apart and back together more times than I can count… No, seriously. I have experienced every human emotion possible. I have had productive days where I felt on top of the world and equipped to tackle infinite tasks as well as week-long periods of depression where I couldn’t even be bothered … Continue reading Social Distancing: How to have your life not fall apart during quarantine
Consistently across several life stages, I’ve found myself longing for the future and having to remind myself to be present and enjoy the “right now”. Like when I was 12, I wanted nothing more than to be 16 and be a teenager. And when I was in high school, I wanted to be in college and feel true freedom. And when I was in college, … Continue reading Vents by Jess: Longing for the future
I could write this lengthy apology post about how I’m sorry that I haven’t made a post in six months, that I just got too caught up and busy with life, that I promise to be more on top of things, filled with excuses and empty gestures galore. You know how it goes. But you don’t wanna hear that and I don’t wanna write that. … Continue reading Where have I been?
Dear current self, I have been avoiding writing this letter (even though I’ve been meaning to get around to it) simply because it’s going to be a tough one. It’s not easy to talk to yourself in this way. It takes a certain amount of intense introspection that, frankly, knowing how I am, not only terrifies and intimidates me, but exhausts me as well. And … Continue reading Letter to My Current Self
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