Tuesday night, I spent the hours between 8pm and midnight in an anxious, doubtful frenzy. I’ve officially started my postgrad job search. I thought I knew what to expect based on the stories I’ve heard from my friends who jumped right into it right after college. I, who took a short break on the other hand, didn’t realize how intimidating and stressful it was going … Continue reading God, insomnia, and resumés
I get my inspiration from rainy, late night drives. Sometimes I get it from having a few too many drinks. Sometimes, it just hits me out of nowhere. But I’m almost always never in a good place to record it or write it down when it strikes, and then it flees from my mind and becomes a lost memory. And I’ve had quite a few … Continue reading Life’s possibilities and making hard decisions
To say that this last year didn’t go as planned would be the understatement (and cliché) of the century. Saying that only scratches the surface. In reality, 2020 has left me with an abundance of mixed thoughts and emotions that I’ve spent the last couple months (if not longer) trying to unpack and make sense of. Before I even get into any of that and … Continue reading Graduating during a pandemic and a 2020 reflection.
I need to vent because I quite literally might go insane right now if I don’t start writing. I’ve had a lot of pent up anxiety and anger at my world today. Sheer rage to be honest. I’ve been feeling frustrated, stuck, upset… just so unhappy thinking about my current situation, my future, and the life I want to live. And when I’m like the … Continue reading Vents by Jess: Matthew 6:25 and worrying about life
Consistently across several life stages, I’ve found myself longing for the future and having to remind myself to be present and enjoy the “right now”. Like when I was 12, I wanted nothing more than to be 16 and be a teenager. And when I was in high school, I wanted to be in college and feel true freedom. And when I was in college, … Continue reading Vents by Jess: Longing for the future
Dear current self, I have been avoiding writing this letter (even though I’ve been meaning to get around to it) simply because it’s going to be a tough one. It’s not easy to talk to yourself in this way. It takes a certain amount of intense introspection that, frankly, knowing how I am, not only terrifies and intimidates me, but exhausts me as well. And … Continue reading Letter to My Current Self
To a younger Jess… To the Jess who thought she was not beautiful. To the Jess who was absolutely convinced she would never find love. To the Jess who dreamed endlessly and dangerously. This is to you. You’re not ugly. I know middle school is filled with insecurities and negative opinions of your physical appearance. I know that you are beyond convinced that you are nowhere … Continue reading Letter to My Younger Self
It has been exactly one month since my first day of college. One month since I was reborn as a freshman. One month since I started a new era of my life. I’ve been planning to make this sort of informal and more personal post for a couple of weeks now. I wanted to talk about my thoughts and experiences so far because I kind of enjoy … Continue reading One month into college…